PNW-GentleDaddy

Tell us a little about what needs you have to be cared after? what kinda lifestyle are you looking for, what do you want from your caregiver? :) and hiya . . . how are you?

I can relate in my own way, and I feel your pain. All I should say here is this, and I know this may be corny, but I think this is so powerful - it helped me shape my life when I was down, really really down. I want to share it with you, but you need to read it and apply it and run thought experiments as you read it, p- reflections of your own life regarding the lesson being taught. This is a free book - pdf version - titled The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, He is exceptional and deff worth investigating into, learn about him, his past, read his book, apply the messages and lessons to your own life, adapt your own model / construct or logic - then respond / act with the new programming. I know my description may be corny or whatever but its the only way I know how to describe it. And if you ever wanna chat, just say hi and tell me whats up? :) Hoping you well and the best. https://ia600709.us.archive.org/11/items/psicology/The Power of Now_a Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment_ Eckhart Tolle%2C 1999 - Eckhart Tolle.pdf

Don't give up on your own dreams, I know how you feel and I too wanna give up, maybe I had in fact given up like 10 years ago, but still I am here. I say I am not looking, but I am, just for the right person though is all. I think letting go of the attachment that I need to have someone helped me a lot. That I need to give to others before myself, that was unhealthy. Coming to know myself this way has helped me a lot. Understanding yourself by looking into others, and understanding others by looking into yourself. That was the lesson, because I would always get lost in them, lose my own sense of identity. Being an empath is really difficult. It has been for me at least, and till I learned that no matter what or who I love etc, I do come first for me. And with that, I can never give up on myself. I can give up on others, but not me. I think maybe that attitude that helped me immensely get thru the times where I just wanted to deflate, give up, self destruct, wither away. Look, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Any tunnel, your choice, its your choice how long you stay in it too, or if you prefer, realize the truth. You need no one but yourself right now. Once you see this internally, and put everyone else to the back seat, you will realize the connection. How can you want another when you don't even want yourself? That was my issue . . . Not saying it's yours, but I wanted to share in case my story could help you, maybe a perspective or attitude could rub off on ya and you can incorporate it, call it a fuck the world kinda attitude or whatever you wanna call it. :) You come first. You dont need anyone, but I get the sense of longing and wanting. Just don't want soo much, and don't give up. Hard headed runs head first into the wall, wall breaks, not the other way around silly :P hugs with love and empathy, compassion, and understanding, that you will be okay, though I get the loneliness. That will pass once you put yourself first. :) <3

I have been on this binge to bring back the 90's, getting rid of computers and subscriptions ( though I rarely have these ) and incorporating older tech, like books, dvds, cds, tape decks / recorders, mp3 players and walkmans, lol . . . After watching some of those "tech giants" talk about how they plan to make the future, they insist on the masses owning nothing and yea so I just don't think that is right. The most of that stuff built back then that still works today is built better to. If my dvd player can last 25 years, well then why do I need a netflix sub? Pirate bay and a dvd recorder is all ya need, well okay blue ray but whatever lol

Hello, How is your day? Hope you find what you are looking for, and that all goes well. :)

I'm the same way, shy at first but warms up quickly, especially with positively stimulated conversations, which I love too btw. It's why I get excited and talk a lot too. :D

I would have to say a good daddy or caregiver wants to participate in his or her role within the relationship and seeks to understand their partner intimately. There must be a desire for this, a fire cannot exist without the spark. If the CG gives feedback, listens and responds positively to your feedback, and seeks to please you and shows caring concern for, they are off to a good start. But tbh, I can't say much more than that, I think this would be essential for any relationship dynamic, so it must apply here too.

I don' think it sounds like you are being needy at all. And I am sus of the caregiver / daddy too. I wouldn't question yourself and your own needs, know them, define them, set boundaries, and communicate them to your cg. If they don't take you seriously I would reflect on what it is you really want from a relationship / and how you can move on / forward / If you want or need support, we are here for you. ! :)

That sucks no one has replied to you? What a jip! Hello! I am new to the community. I was just curious and had to read your post and reply!

I miss Cali, tbh I had a lot of great experiences there, and one heart break that had me leave the state for my own space. There will never be another calzone like the way this one shop made em, omfg . . . . sooooooo goood, and yea the people, friends, some college memories, swimming, exploring and camping, I was even homeless there for 2 years, It's kinda how I started my journey there lol, I spent idk trying to think, 4 years in cali, Northern - mid Cali to be specific, tell you what I don't want to sit in San Fran traffic ever again THATS FOR SURE ! lol oh man, some of my fav people I have shared memories with are from Cali. Tho I know most of them to be passed away now, helped build a shelter there in that one town, over 100 beds. Turned a run down church into a thriving shelter for the community. It is still up and running this day. My aunt lives there, but she is not well and when I went to visit well I ended up just leaving and toughing it out. I really really miss this one place, college overlook, I camped out there and walked to school, it was high up and could see the whole city, it was really really special, I miss that place.

I would have to image that the smell of clean new diapers brings back some memories and or emotions from being a child? I don't have those memories from that young but I do have the smells, I get wiffs when riding my bike or walking out here that from a childhood take me to a special place of security and positive feelings or memories, mostly around family or places out in nature, weird things like this smell of a toy store, the used trains had oil, and that oil has a particular smell, well I get that here and there in town and when I smell it oh man it takes me back to memories I can't actually remember. Like, I remember seeing the store and being in it but I can't exactly see it.

This is a great question,