I just joined too and have no idea what I am looking for what even what it is that I like. I know somethings you know, and other things I have known for a long time, but this is all still new to me. I came here cause a friend told me this site exists and I might find people like me here. In my world I have been kept in a strict environment. My mom and dad are both religious and I always went to church with them. Now I am an adult and learning about life and adulting for the first time.
I get what it is you want, I think I want that too. I hope you find it and I hope it's safe here to explore and learn.
As for my experience knowing I desire a DDLG dynamic, I don't wear diapers but I do most other things in context to the dynamic. Also, I want a daddy / boyfriend but one that is mature and able to lead and hold a relationship. I am looking for more about learning about myself and what my needs are rather than meeting someone and being used or abused or exploited someway.
I don't know if I should go into detail publicly but my daddy kink started when I met my dad friend who is part of our community. He is genuinely nice and a good person. He never tried to hurt me or abuse me either. He is several years older than me but he is much younger than my dad, anyway I was young when I met him and I have had a crush on him ever since we met in our group. How did you realize you had a certain complex or dynamic? Did you act on your impulses or desires? I couldn't, I am terribly shy and quite when it comes to being close to a guy I like. I have a few crushes right now but I am good at hiding it from them.