New Daddy looking for conversation and guidance

[IfYouBuildItTheyWillCum]

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I have particular tastes but am very empathetic. I can typically read the room pretty well, but I am not typical. Except perhaps, here. I want to ease into this because of my past trauma and I don't want to become a traumatizer. If anyone very experienced in this would like to help me with my journey, hear my story, help me understand myself and prevent anyone from getting hurt by my ignorance, I would appreciate it. I only say this because you can know someone for years and years and never really know them. I am pretty transparent but also adaptive, survival instincts kick in then it's manipulation and of course naturally it's intentional. When you like to bite, that can get scary, I like safe words. Keeps me honest because if I feel lacking in emotional/sexual attention I used to become a little more aggressive. Just being honest. It was complicated. I don't want to be a bad Daddy but I'm pretty sure I want a good girl who can't help being bad. Maybe. By nature I live outside the box but I'd been stuck in one for almost a decade. I'm still doing a little spring cleaning. I'm finally walking about on trails again and I feel like I'm ready to let people in. I have a lot of love to give and this house is way too big for just me. Otherwise, do you have any good theories on what the universe is, how it works and why?