36 M from the PNW Daddy looking for that one special girl

[JakkTheArbitraryHeretic]

I am both a complete person, and an incomplete person.

I have my personality, I have my strengths and weaknesses, I have my hobbies, I have my friends, and I have a deep understanding of who I am 
I even have my own place.

But I am alone, even when in a group of people, I feel, isolated. Because there's one part of me, that I can not, and will not give to just anyone.

I have so much love, affection, passion, intimacy, and support to give, but without the one girl who truly means the world to me, and to whom I truly mean the world to as well, I am left wanting in every emotional, mental and physical regard.

To say I'm 'desperate' isn't completely accurate, because I don't just want anyone, I want 'her', the girl who will understand me, the girl who will love me and want me to love her, the girl who just wants to watch the world burn with me, while we eat snacks, and cuddle, and get a little frisky with each other.
I want the girl who will genuinely want to commit to a more than lifelong monogamous relationship, where honesty, communication, patience, giggles, and just in general a feeling of wholeness is the primary driving force. I want us to play games together, I want us to watch anime, cartoons, and other shows together, I want us to cuddle and for me to be her 'Daddy' in every way, and her to be my sweet little girl.

I haven't met you yet... But I need you. And I'll know it's you, because you will always need me as much as I need you.

I'm here, in Oak Harbor, Washington. I may not be rich by any means, but I will take care of you to the absolute best of my ability, heart, mind, body and soul.

Please be somewhat local, because my heart has been broken dozens of times from long distance relationships.
(To be fair, local means at least in the continental United States, preferably Whidbey island, but in Washington state is good too as long as you'd be okay sleeping over)

I am 6'1, roughly 300lbs but I'm kinda working on it, I've got autism and multiple sclerosis, and have a daughter from a previous relationship, she mostly lives with her mother in another state, and I've had a vasectomy so I can't have more kids.
(Which means you and I can fully enjoy being deeeeeply intimate 😘)
I'm extremely patient (though it might not always seem like it), and I'm honest to a fault.
(The only exception to my honesty is in when I'm telling a joke or a story -though that's always clear before hand-, and things like bluffing and deception in games especially when the games almost require it. And of course I can be wrong about something, but that's less of me being dishonest and either me not knowing/understanding, OR it's something that I just personally believe, even if it's not something other people might believe. But aside from those few exceptions, I do not lie. I just don't see the point in it. Lying only ever causes problems. Even white lies can be harmful.)
And to make sure you read this, please tell me what I promised I'd give you if you were my little.

Thank you for reading this, and I hope I find the little who needs me as much as I need her 💜