Your name isn't daddy and to refer to yourself solely as that is a disgrace and a disservice to those who have earned and deserve the title. Your post reeks of jaded mysoginistic middle aged basement dweller energy. Thats not being dominant, thats not being daddy, and thats absolutely not being a caregiver to a vulnerable little. This isnt some 50 shades of grey Hollywood movie toxic bdsm story, this is real life. You dont need a sub, little or otherwise. You need therapy before you end up preying on and hurting a girl with low enough self-esteem to accept your ridiculous self-serving demands. Your post gives off childish tantrum vibes, not daddy dom vibes. I understand you were hurt in the past, but dont be a piece of shit about it. Pull your head out of your ass, look in the mirror and ask yourself if a relationship like that would make you happy or if you just need to buy yourself a stroker and clear out some of that pent up toxicity you have stored in your blue balls. You make me sick and you arent deserving of even a normal relationship with that kind of mindset much less one with any form of power dynamic.