Don’t know how to explain it?

[Phinny]

Hey this is my first time using something like, so please bear with me as I know I don’t have the best grammar nor spelling. But I don’t where else to turn to apart from here. 

Erm hello to anyone that’s ever felt what I’m feeling yet don’t know how to explain the feeling itself, I’ll give a short introduction about myself and then explain why I title this the way I did.

hi I’m phinny ( nickname) I’m 25 F that’s lives in the Uk, I’ve been apart of the LGBTQIA+ since I was 14 years and have only been a little for the last 6 years with some experiences. 
 

please understand that I know my introduction was short but it’s to due personal reasons and experience that I’m finding it hard to find the right words as well as trying to not go into little space to due the emotional state I am whiles trying this. 
 

anyways now on to the title, exactly as it state is the best way to ‘phrase’ it but explain to it is a bit harder, you see I grew up in a single parent household where my mother only taught me bout certain things about how to live in the world and how cruel the world can be at times. since from a young age I had to grow up really fast especially since it wasn’t just me but for my twin too, but anyways not trying to get to personal, lets just say certain things happened and here I am age 25 F unable to make friends, I don’t know maybe it’s because I’m always alone that I don’t know maybe that can be why I can’t explain this feeling well. 
 

Gosh I don’t know, I bet this will look stupid to some to which I’m used to since I’ve been told openly before that I don’t have the ”typical” look to be a little hence I can’t be since I’m 5 foot 9 and grew up playing a majority of different sports. But to those that understand where I going with this then please let me know. 
 

I don’t know how this forum works so my deepest apologies if anyone has trying to reach out 

[DaddyDoug]

Hello Phinny, I understand, want to chat?