IfYouBuildItTheyWillCum

(^_^)_/ I have particular tastes but am very empathetic. I can typically read the room pretty well, but I am not typical. Except perhaps, here. I want to ease into this because of my past trauma and I don't want to become a traumatizer. If anyone very experienced in this would like to help me with my journey, hear my story, help me understand myself and prevent anyone from getting hurt by my ignorance, I would appreciate it. I only say this because you can know someone for years and years and never really know them. I am pretty transparent but also adaptive, survival instincts kick in then it's manipulation and of course naturally it's intentional. When you like to bite, that can get scary, I like safe words. Keeps me honest because if I feel lacking in emotional/sexual attention I used to become a little more aggressive. Just being honest. It was complicated. I don't want to be a bad Daddy but I'm pretty sure I want a good girl who can't help being bad. Maybe. By nature I live outside the box but I'd been stuck in one for almost a decade. I'm still doing a little spring cleaning. I'm finally walking about on trails again and I feel like I'm ready to let people in. I have a lot of love to give and this house is way too big for just me. Otherwise, do you have any good theories on what the universe is, how it works and why?

If you love to laugh and learn new things, that's good. If you're patient, good at communicating and have an artistic side, that's great. If you are obedient with a little sass, eager to please with a little nibble because you know, then perhaps your dark prince has arrived. In the form of an altruistic hero who has been remolded by the atrocities of the world, who is but the form following the function of what, if you know you know. I love to dance and you cannot have roses without rain. There is an infinite amount of things to learn and practice and my mind rebels at stagnation. I just want something real, but the world has preversed my mind. I am not ready for irl, but I want to get to know you. I have kept to myself for a long time due to conditioning. People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Perhaps I'm meant to teach you something or learn from you in passing. I want to find a "good girl" that I can love for a lifetime. Everyone is infinitely more capable than they know they are. I can bring out the best in people, but I was mind-f#cked for several years, turning an ocean into a bubbling brook. Then a couple years later now I'm looking for someone who brings out the best in me, without even trying. Effort is nice too though (^_^) because I put in a lot when I want to. Unfortunately I can't be your Superman, but I can make Aquaman look like a novice iykwim. I didn't even know a place like this existed and it has given me bounds of hope to find a truly loving relationship with someone who actually freaking gets it. However I am learning and would also appreciate any cautionary input to......keep my yin from making me toxic to anyone. I've done some pre-emptive reading but that doesn't beat real time experience. Anyway, please read my far too lengthy profile before responding as there is a disclaimer at the end. I hope you enjoy your day, thanks for dippin your toes in! (^_^)_/